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The Return of Candid Teacher June 30, 2010

Filed under: education,Kindergarten,teaching — candidteacher @ 2:34 pm

Candid Teacher Admits: I’m back, and I don’t know how to feel about it.

What I have been waiting for for 3 excruciating months has finally happened.. I have been offered a job!

I am truly excited to know I can continue being “Candid Teacher”.  However, the position is for Kindergarten, which I have been teaching the past 2 years.  While I have enjoyed aspects of teaching this grade, I also would like to explore other grade levels or subjects.  One major thing I dislike about Kindergarten is doing “crafts”.  I’m not artistic and really do not enjoy doing “cutesy” projects, which is quite a bit of what Kindergarten is expected to be like.

Upon accepting the position yesterday, I found out I will soon be invited in for a final interview as a Reading Specialist.  Being a reading teacher appeals to me in many ways, however I face it with some trepidation as I have never done it before.  I would be the K-6 school’s only reading specialist.  I would have to help teachers level and group students and inspire low students to achieve.  Though I love the idea of this job and the notion of working with small groups of students, the reality is it may be too much responsibility for me.  If there was another reading specialist for me to work with, I’d be less timid about it.  However, being the only person, I tend to shy away from such great responsibility.

I feel so lucky to have been given so many opportunities, especially in this economy.

Now I face tough choices that will affect the rest of my career.

Still yours,
Candid Teacher

 

So Much Stuff! June 23, 2010

Filed under: education,Kindergarten,teaching — candidteacher @ 4:19 pm

Candid Teacher Admits: I had no idea I had so much “teacher stuff”.

The only thought I had as I packed my classroom and gradually moved my things to my apartment and my old bedroom in my parent’s house was: “Where did all of this stuff come from?”
I’ve been admittedly frugal over the past 2 years in terms of buying things for my classroom.  Despite the fact that I have less than most teachers in my school, I still managed to acquire a large amount.  It’s a good thing I don’t live at my parent’s house any more, because there is absolutely no room for me!  I have SO much stuff that boxes are piled high and take up the majority of the floor in my old bedroom.

I did try to loosely track my spending on teacher items this past year and I was astounded at how much I spent.  I don’t know any other job where, in order to be successful, you must purchase many of your own supplies.  Looking back to initially getting hired by my district 2 years ago, I remember asking, “Won’t I be provided with any of these books or items?”  I knew teachers were expected to purchase many of their own things (folders, pencils, staplers, pencil sharpeners, etc.), but I did not realize the extent.  I thought that teachers bought ADDITIONAL games/activities, but I didn’t realize that I’d have to get everything myself, including things mandated by the curriculum.  Doesn’t that seem a bit odd?

Well I’ve learned that in teaching, it isn’t.

I’ve bought: pencils, erasers, tons of books, office supplies, games, coloring books, lesson idea books, bulletin board supplies, CDs/tapes, storage bins, toys, puzzles, games, gifts for my students, snacks for students, and much, much more.
This is nothing compared to what other teachers buy including: backpacks/lunchboxes for students in need, winter coats, shoes, more toys/games, furniture, etc.

I can’t believe how much I already have after 2 short years.  I’m sure I’ll continue to acquire more.  Even though most of my teacher things are now at my parent’s house, I still have “teacher stuff” jammed into my walk-in closet (good thing there are 2 closets in my bedroom; I use the smaller one for my personal belongings) and the front coat closet (who needs to hang up coats?).  My only conclusion is that I need a bigger apartment.

Yours,

Candid Teacher

 

Mix of Emotions June 16, 2010

Filed under: education,Kindergarten,teaching — candidteacher @ 12:59 pm

Candid Teacher Admits: Now that the end of the year has come, I’m not ready to go.

Sure, I’m tired of a certain few students.  Sure, I look forward to sleeping in.  Sure, I can’t wait to go to the beach while everyone else is at work.
But I will miss many of my students, and it’s hard to leave knowing I won’t get to see them in the halls as first graders.  I was also looking forward to seeing last year’s students become second graders.  They’ll be fine without me, but I’ll miss them.

I am really excited to finally get a chance to breathe a little.  It’s been so busy – testing, report cards, packing my room, wrapping up the end of the year, interviewing, etc.  However, if I don’t get a new job, I’ll be “breathing” far longer than I want to be!

Right now it’s time for me to get ready for an interview.. fingers crossed that it goes well so I can continue being “Candid Teacher”.  Without the job, my identity suffers.

Yours,

Candid Teacher

 

Growing Desperate June 3, 2010

Filed under: education,Kindergarten,teaching — candidteacher @ 9:36 pm

Candid Teacher Admits: I’m so impatient!

I know I only found out that I got laid off just over a month ago, but I’m already growing impatient.

At the end of July I have to move out of my apartment.  If I don’t have a job, I don’t know where I’ll go.  Though I know I can go to my parent’s house, that is truly a last resort.  Being on my own is simply too wonderful.

On top of that, people are urging me to apply for jobs other than teaching.  Though I am doing that, it’s frustrating because I am not really qualified for much else.  I love to write but have no real experience.  Teaching is all I am.  I’m a one-trick pony with no audience.

I just want to scream!!!!!!

As the school year winds down very quickly and my students grow excited at the prospect of becoming first graders, I grow more deflated.  What am I going to do?

Yours,

Candid Teacher

 

3 More Weeks June 1, 2010

Filed under: education,Kindergarten,teaching — candidteacher @ 10:27 pm

Candid Teacher Admits: I can’t wait for summer!

I usually hold off as long as I can to begin the “count down” to the end of the school year.  However, once I make it to June, I let myself indulge in calculating the number of days left of school.  Since the last two days of school are half days and I plan to take some at least one day off to visit doctors while I still have insurance, I have less than 3 weeks left.
I am thrilled to the core!

Though I’m excited at the prospect of having a break, I’m also very nervous.  I am the kind of person who enjoys having something to do nearly all the time.  Knowing I have a break with nothing to return to in the fall makes me uneasy.

Where will I be?  Will I have a job?  Will I have to put my personal plans of moving into a new apartment on hold?  Will I have to move back in with my parents?  Will my students be okay in first grade?  Have I done everything I can to ensure my students have the right foundation for success?  Will I be able to get a job at all- whether teaching or otherwise?

So many questions are clouding my head.  Many are about myself.  Many others concern my students and their well-being.  I know I can’t answer them all; nobody can.  Still, I hope I will find some answers in the near future.

Yours,

Candid Teacher