Candid Teacher Admits: I’m terrified that the children getting in the way of me liking my job.. which would be a pretty big problem considering my line of work.
As a teacher, the number one qualification is kind of a no-brainer. You absolutely must, without a doubt, love children. So then what happens if you realize you love activities for kids, love talking about best teaching practices, love everything that goes into teaching, can talk passionately about children… but when it comes to the actual act of the teaching children, things aren’t so hunky-dory?
I have been working with an amazing group of teachers the past few weeks. It’s been very busy and even, dare I say it, fun. From time to time I have considered updating my blog but I always eschew it thinking, “Nah, nobody wants to read about people who are happy.” (It’s true, don’t try to deny it.) So now, I return to you in a state that is more interesting to read about but significantly less fun to feel.
Today I worked with about 30 of the incoming Kindergarten students. I don’t know which will be in my class yet, but working with these children made the fears I have had previously creep back into my conscience… what if it’s the teaching children part of my job that I don’t like? If that’s the case, I’m in big, big, BIG trouble.
Seriously, what kind of teacher doubts their love for children? Me. Does that make me a horrible teacher/person? I know that sometimes the kids drive me crazy, but that can happen to anyone and is okay. My greatest fear is that I’ll become the teacher who “works for the summer off” or the “short” hours (hah). I’ve promised myself I’d never be that teacher and always despised educators who had that philosophy. I still know that I’ll never become that teacher, but I feel as though if I don’t absolutely love it and give it my all, then I have no choice but to find a new career.
Do I take my job too seriously, or am I in a great deal of trouble here?